Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Swatch has offered me the choice to either replace my strap, or choose a brand new model altogether, provided it's the same price as my current watch. I shall definitely head down to PS tomorrow to check out the watches there, but at the moment I'd really like to stick to the one I've got, 'cos I really like the design and the colour. A pity the strap keeps cracking up.

I love it that tomorrow is really short. I had a bad enough day today, partly because of Econs and History, partly because the new Tuesday timetable is rather long, with a two hour break leading up to econs lecture. At least, at the end of all the shenanigans of the econs dept, I got to eat my first Krispy Kereme doughnuts! Courtesy of Adrienne, who brought them all the way from London for Owen, who in turn graciously shared them with me. In addition she brought a magnificent poster of Bushisms, the various nonsensical statements George W Bush has made over his two terms in office. That poster now takes centrestage on the debating noticeboard, alongside a rather hideous progression of photos of the team's and exco's mouths, which happen to be autographed. I think whenever I need humouring I shall now pay a visit to Bush and take in the brilliance of the man who sits now in the Oval Office. I truly cannot understand how someone this qualified to turn the most morose person into a bundle of laughs could ever have assumed office. America! What were you thinking? Clearly your president was cut out for a different course in life!

I fear for the immediate future of debates in the school. If things carry on this way we won't have a team to field. Not possible. We can't let all our hard work over the last year go to waste!

Monday, March 27, 2006

We have cause to be uneasy

I hate the feeling I get the day before school reopens, and even though it's only been a short break, it still hurts to go back. This is not the same feeling as the one I get when a new school year is starting. It's the feeling of going back to school to get results. Yes, those dreaded figures and letters that spell either doom or day. My whole day was marred by the continuous thought of getting them back. It was okay initially, since I didn't know what the timtable was. But then I got the new timetable, and what can be worse than starting the new term with an Econs tutorial and an International History tutorial? The papers I dread the most. I dread all the papers, but I know I didn't prepare sufficiently for Econs, and I know I misinterpreted the Cold War question. For the rest, it's either hit or miss. Well, I know I already missed the mark for Top Girls, but at least it's Mr Smith who's giving back the paper, and that alleviates the situation.

Fie upon them. If the term will begin this way I suppose it's just a sign of things to come. Just as well I suppose, beginning with the two subjects I probably need to work hardest on. Fie upon them. I defy them all, just as I defied the barbarian hordes that swarmed before the walls of Constantinople. Haha, I spent my afternoon at Ker Han's house playing Rome: Total War. It was a good way to destress I suppose, running over my pitiless computerised enemies. Brought back some fond memories of hours spent playing on the computer. Where can I find such time or interest now?

I've been hit by a dozen different irritances over the past few days. Sometimes the situation around me gets so intolerable I feel like lashing at the nearest possible object. I think the phrase, "familiarity breeds contempt" has never proved truer than in the past week. Or maybe that's too one-sided an explanation for my tension. I hate it when people ask me what I think are stupid questions. I hate it when people automatically assume I have the answers to their questions. I hate it when people cut into my space, or annoy me by making me do useless things when they can do them themselves. I hate to see the tension before me, and the unreflective nature of certain people. Yes, mental willpower counts for something when you're sick, but try telling a cancer patient to believe that he's well when he's obviously not! How can one assume mental strength is all that's required?

I can see one good thing coming out of this. I've been so annoyed by so many little things, that it's pushed me to a point where I stop to think and try to put myself in someone else's shoes, and try for a moment to be reasonable and let things go. It's funny, how I have to get so angry that I tire of being angry.

I must have sounded terribly self-centred and unreasonable above. I don't know... I'm really fed up sometimes. There's this desire to at once left alone and yet kept in the know, to be distant and in the fray. Or perhaps this is a wakeup call to return to God. I'm sorry to everyone if I've been short or curt in the past few days, or in the days to come. Maybe I'm blowing my frustrations in the wrong place. Yes, I probably am. It is time, after all, to once again get serious.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

It's over, for now

At last, at long last, Block Test 1 is over. I can say one good thing about JC exams. They seem to pass much faster than secondary school exams, which go on for weeks... If I see Mr Yoong in church this weekend I'll just turn and walk away quickly. Don't want to spoil my day.

We went to Spaggedies for lunch! I liked my blackened crayfish pasta, although the crayfish was definitely not blackened. And the ceasar salad was nice too. Of course, cheese cake is just the way to end off a hearty meal...

Then we went to Bryan's house. And he has a dog! With the most human sounding bark I've ever heard! It's a cute little pomeranian that looks much bigger than it actually is because of its fur; its overall size is still tiny. But it's really cute! It runs in circles and when it barks, or should I say, yelps, it sounds like someone with a high nasal voice going, "Hi! Hi!"

Ah well, the next four days will be days of rest and relaxation. It feels as though the holidays are coming soon, because the exams have just ended. But we all know the harsher reality of life... Then again, who says I can't deceive myself for a little while?

Monday, March 20, 2006

I think I'm suffering from SIMUN withdrawal symptoms... Sitting in the hall today doing GP it suddenly occured to me that it looked vaguely like the General Assembly hall, and all the tables and chairs looked like delegation seats. I had the urge to take a piece of paper and hold it out into the air, waiting for a securitary to come running and deliver it to the chair or someone. I should have written in the third person for the AQ question. "This candidate agrees with the author of passage..."

I miss all the protocol, I miss the debates, I miss the multicultural environment, I miss the talk and chatter. When you've heard so many different voices and accents, and seen so many viewpoints, coming back to school in Singapore feels so anticlimatic. I wish the holidays were longer.

Well, Day 1 of block test over, and I feel strangely numb. In fact I felt rather numb throughout today. I pray I'll make it through the rest of the week unscathed. Rather looking forward to Thursday.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

SIMUN

I'm exhausted. I've been feeling this way for the past three days everytime I come home. It is tiring work to spend the whole day debating with delegates of various countries. So anyway, updates are due on the Singapore Model United Nations, or SIMUN.

I love the French School, or the Lycee Francais de Singapour (Singapore is pronounced as Singa-poo, how sweet!). The grounds are so European and recreational. Anyway, the conference began well on the first day. There was intense lobbying and a mad rush to get our resolutions printed in time for the committee sessions. The sessions were even better. I found that it is rather enjoyable to point out and bash the various flaws in resolutions. Of course, everything must be said and done in a diplomatic fashion, and also in the third person form of speech. To demonstrate that I shall continue the rest of this post in the third person. I was the ambassador of Brazil for the uninitiated.

To begin, Brazil wishes to stress that it supports the elimination of all forms of religious intolerance. To this end, the delegate of Brazil merged his resolution with the delegates of Australia, Human Rights Watch, Russia, Israel, Sierra Leone, Panama, the United Kingdom, and Japan. The bloc's resolution was passed overwhelmingly by the Human Rights Sub-Committee 2, from which it went on to be debated in the General Assembly, where it too was passed by a large majority. Sub-Com 2 only passed our resolution, out of the 5 that were debated in the committee. The ambassador of Syria was most disrespectful to UN protocol and was almost thrown out by the chair. The delegate of Brazil wishes to stress that Brazil was strongly opposed to the resolution proposed by Syria. Also, the delegate of Panama was repeatedly warned by the chair for using the first-person.

Moving away from third-person, I'm sure you'll all have noted the hilarity that can ensue from using the third person all the time. When the chairperson wished to express her anger with Syria, she had to say, "The chair wishes to say that it is very angry...". And all this third person thingy sometimes makes delegates sound very sarcastic, like when we raise points of information, "Is the delegate of so-and-so aware of..." or "Does the delegate of so-and-so not agree that..."

I was disappointed with today's General Assembly session, as we had to rush through the last few resolutions to fit them in and hence could not make amendments to them. Also, I was strongly against the Security Council resolution on the situation in Georgia that was passed. Russia was clearly acting in its vested interests and not for the good of Georgia. the UK was an even more vehement defender of the resolution.

It was interesting and humourous to see various delegates really getting into character. The ambassadors of North Korea and Cuba respectively were continously hectoring the US for "extending it's empire". Today Cuba went up and accused a US-led resolution of trying to "cover its ass". The US delegation promptly demanded an apology. Cuba relented, but said that the sentiments it expressed remained unchanged.

I heard from other committees that in the one room the Russian delegate threatened the room with use of force, calling for the need to correct "the balance of power" in the Mediterranean. In another room the North Korean delegate gave a brilliant speech in favour of democracy, to which the Iranian delegate replied, "After hearing that speech, Iran notes that the situation of democracy in North Korea leaves something to be desired. How does the delegate explain this?" To which N Korea replied, "Just because North Korea does not practise democracy does not mean it cannot comment on it." Just some snippets of SIMUN politics...

In my own room Panama called for the wall between Israel and Palestine to be torn down. Of course, Israel opposed this, whereas Palestine argued that the wall was a breach of human rights. For my part, I sided with Israel on the grounds that a peacekeeping force sent into the area to replace the wall would worsen the situation.

All in all, I feel that SIMUN has been a great learning experience for me in terms of international diplomacy and issues. I must say that the scenery was very good. I personally felt that Madam Secretary General was very elegant, smart and, well... delectable. And the delegates of the UK, Japan and Israel caught my eye too, haha. I think I have a fondness for foreign women... Thankfully I am proud to say that good scenery did not distract this delegate from the more pressind issues at hand.

Ugh, block test. It's such an anticlimax to degenerate from high politics into mere drudgery... back down to earth, Joel, back down to earth...

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

V for Vendetta

Remember, remember, the Fifth of November,
The day of the gunpowder plot.
I know of no reason
Why the gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot.

People should not be afraid of their governments.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

I promised someone I'd blog about her classmates who apparently stole her RJ econs notes and photocopied them. So there it is. I'm afraid writing anymore might implicate me in a situation that doesn't involve me in the first place, so I'm not naming or blaming anyone. But I guess this incident just highlights the increasing desperation of J2s to do well for the coming exams. Incidentally I just got a whole bunch of HC notes from Tedric haha. I shall spend the rest of the week studying like I've never done so before. (theoretically speaking, of course)

I'm extremely thankful that the break is finally here. For once I can stay away from school for a while, with the exception of Tuesday because of GP makeup. Other then that, I think the "holidays" (study break would be a better term) will be spent relaxing while at the same time mugging. I kind of look forward to MUN. Should be fun.

On Friday I judged at the last preliminary round for the secondary school debating championships. I must say that one debate was much better in quality to the rest I've judged. Hopefully I'll get to judge the quarter-finals, and hopefully it will be in a better division, because I'm getting addicted to judging, hehe. I wonder if I'm too harsh though...

I think I need to rest for a while. I wanna watch V for Vendetta! And read up some good books! Borders here I come!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

We had a mock MUN committee session yesterday. It was hilarious. Everything is so formal and organised you have to go through so much red tape just to make a point or amendment. I especially love the part where we get to wave our placards in the air to attract the chairman's attention. Oh, and securitaries. What a delightful concept, having errand boys run from delegate to delegate to pass messages. MUN should be a blast if all goes well. I just need to finish studying most of the work by then.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

A big thank you to everyone who tagged! Thank you liz, musa, vicks, dai wei, and jeremy! I'm sure you're all very excited that I'm finally legal to drink and drive, although I will not be doing the latter for several years to come. As for the former, I think I'll stick to wine for now. Beer just sounds crass. I quite liked the bottle opened over Christmas. If time allows, which I doubt it will, I want to watch Munich. Thanks also to everyone who messaged me! That would mean beni, musa, vicks, dai wei, jeremy and jie min! Haha, the last one was unexpected.

And now I must turn my attention to more pressing issues. The block test approaches in two weeks, and my preparations are at best minimal. To make things worse, my schedule for the next two weeks is blocked up with numerous activities. Makeup lectures on Tuesday and Thursday, S paper training tomorrow, MUN meeting on Wednesday, CCA signup on Friday and of course the last round of adjudication for the JGs. I just realised I'll be busy every single afternoon this week!!! And then when the holidays come round I'll have the MUN conference from Thursday to Saturday. Simply put, I feel stressed.

Well, at least I can look forward to more of my cell J1s in school from tomorrow onwards. Although I dread the racket the ogs will make.... I wonder how the councillors cope...

Saturday, March 04, 2006

18 years to the day

On my way to church today I was reflecting on turning 18. To me the significance attached to the ages of 16, 18 and 21 is almost arbitrary. How is it that society, or the state, deems me mature enough to bring life into this world (ie have sex) at 16, whereas I can only drink at 18? Shouldn't the first be a weightier matter in terms of consequence? And what is it about 21 that makes me an adult? A century ago I'd probably be married at my age. Now, it is only when I am a year above 20 that I am eligible to vote, buy a house, drive a car. The numbers almost seem silly.

Anyway, my buddy group surprised me with a cake! Louisa had some of those candles that never go out no matter how many times you blow them, but hers didn't work. They went out with one snuff. Humph. I'd always wanted to see one of those in action. And John got me a Graceland keychain that spells my name.

My birthday is much more subdued this year with the absence of my parents. I spent dinner in the Kuali, an Asian buffet restaurant at Suntec that is definitely NOT worth the price. I'm never going back there again. But I'll bet it would have been better if my parents were around. It is lonely to eat with just my brother as company, not that that's bad, but it just feels so much more quiet.

I think I shall uncork a bottle of wine tomorrow and toast myself to a great year ahead, haha. And then to count my blessings.

Friday, March 03, 2006

My mom left for KL today, so she can't celebrate my birthday this year. So we had the cake last night instead. Blackforest cake. A classic choice. I think I'll have blackforest cake as my birthday cake for the rest of my life, haha.

Then this morning I got this handmade double sided photo frame (I don't really know how to describe it) from Beni. Thank you Beni! It's really nice and pretty! I'm very touched. Now I can look at my favourite people in class at home too, haha.

Oh yes, and Vicks also gave me a handmade card last week 'cos she couldn't wait. Rest assured that it's proudly on display on my study table surface. Thank you Vicks! I'm touched too!

We watched the first act of Top Girls in Lit lecture today. ugh. The dialogue was hopelessly out of sync with the actors. In any case, I realised how much the act is written to resemble real life. It really does sound like a bunch of women talking furiously at the same time.

People and Politics. I wish, that for once in a long time, elections in Singapore will be more exciting, and that hopefully the opposition can win a few more seats in Parliament. I really find it ridiculous that my district is lumped under Marine Parade GRC when I stay at Upper Aljunied Road. Shouldn't I be in Aljunied GRC?? And guess what, Serangoon is also under Marine Parade GRC. The whole thing's a joke, seriously...

I don't wish opposition for the sake of opposition, but when you've got a party in power for the past 40 years, even having that doesn't sound too bad. And if we do have more opposition seats in Parliament for the sake of opposition, it won't be too bad since they won't be in power anyway. I can't wait to vote. Turning 18 is a step forward I guess.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Never again

I will never, ever again take another Chinese lesson for the rest of my life!!! Or at least, for the next 5 years. Maybe my future job may require me to go to China and I'll require some major brushing up on my pathetic Chinese linguistic skills.

Gotta go get History readings!